The soul of one

This story is about a girl who tells her story about the toxic relationship she went throughwent through a heart break is never forever unless you make it forever this story is meant to be relatable and for other people who have similar experiences know they are not alone

• Drama
• Short story
• Diaries

								
She knew that their love story was over. She knew that was going to be the very last time she would ever get to talk to him but she was ok. This is her story. Chapter One Pain. It takes a person to look at the love of their life and leave them for their own mental state. It takes love to keep trying until you can't anymore so why did she do it? She knew their love was falling apart. She was so attached that she held on . until her rope snapped. She was drowning in his lack of love for her. He heard her cries but felt nothing. Her tears were just water to him. He heard,He saw but still hurted her. He never cared who she was as a person he knew he had control and that's all he needed she begged him to try for her she never asked for much she never really asked for anything all she wanted was reassurance and communication  that's all she asked from him but he couldn't even do that he would tell her he's sorry he would say he's ready to change and how its time for him to step up just for him to go back how he was two weeks later he would say hurtful things to her all the time and didn't care how she felt he would speak and not think how it affected her mentally she always held her tongue and thought before speaking to him for two reasons she knew if she had truly speaked her mind he would leave and she knew he didn't care either way so what was the point  . Chapter two. Tears. She cried so much, her stomach hurting like its no tomorrow and  her mental health going down trying to persevere a relationship knowing its dead she stayed even when everyone told her to leave she stayed when she knew he would hurt her again she stayed… crying herself to sleep while praying to god for him to fix this for her so she can be happy again, going to her friends for help. holding her breath to stop the tears while he’s sleeping like a baby not giving her a second thought she was trapped between her heart and her mind she knew what she had to do but she didn't want to lose him, losing him made her feel doleful and broken she made him her whole world while to him she was just like everyone else . She convinced herself that things will get better, that life will lighten up but things only got worse and the void got darker and darker until not even a flashlight could help her out the dark place she was in she was having anxiety and panic attacks left to right feeling like she has no air in her body feeling like her whole world just stopped spinning every thought every memory of him made she stomach flip inside out losing her appetite not being able to finish a meal nor wanting to eat nor drink always feeling like she has to throw up she was falling apart slowly and no one noticed . chapter three. understandance. She is a very understanding person. She always tried to understand him but what she didn't understand was. Why did he treat her like that? Why did he block her just because she was busy, why did he talk to other girls behind her back ,why did he mentally abuse her, why did he make her feel like less of a person why..  she did everything for him she was his number one supporter was always there for everything and never left his side when things got hard even when he was pushing her away she stand by his side and went into the storm with him and he took her for granted she will never understand nor forgive him because why he did do the things he did when all she was trying to do was love him. she knew he wasn't going to stop hurting her. she felt embarrassed to talk about her problems knowing how highly she spoke of him even when he was being toxic  she spoke on his name like he was god giving him a perfect boyfriend title so people wont think less of him she stayed with him through thick and thin even when all she could do most days was cry so I ask her again why did you stay...Chapter 4. Fighting. if it wasn't her parents fighting it was him and her she was tired and weak she knew if she brought anything up that he did it would be an argument he made her think that everything he did was her fault how if she did this more than that wouldn't be the outcome he made her think that she was doing everything wrong she changed herself for him she worked on herself so he wouldn't leave her she tried her hardest putting him and his needs before hers she thought if she changed herself and tried harder than everything would be fixed but that's not the case she slowly realized that she will never be good enough for him it doesn't matter how much effort she puts into their relationship he will never respect and love her like how she does to him and that she her sad reality of it she hated knowing that it didn't matter what she said about how she felt he wasn't going to change for anything she hated him for his words and actions and hated herself even more for allowing him to do the things he did to her  . Chapter Five her. You think I want to go through this you think I want to feel like my soul is being sucked out of me feeling like i could fall out at any moment feeling like the whole world is against me I´m so tired of waking up every day, knowing my boy isn't my boy anymore going to school putting on a smile for everyone trying not to break character trying to make it seem like I'm ok all the time when all I want to do is scream and cry but I can't all there is to is stare at a wall in silence knowing there is no more him no more us no more anything knowing that i will never be the same person i was before i met him i blame myself i really do i blame myself for the pain i blame myself for the hurt i blame myself for all of my tears i blame myself for all of it I hate waking up everyday knowing that my day is going to be just like how yesterday was.  i want to die it's not a feeling where life is getting to hard so i want to end it its to the point where my everything is gone and not because of a boy but because everything good i have gets taken from me in seconds what's the point i say blaming god for my hurt i would pray to god ¨ how can you bring him in my life and take him out just like that¨ screaming at the top of my lungs in my pillow trying to find some type of hope or happiness I feel so drained and exhausted from him I want to be ok I want to be happy but i can´t . chapter five . Freedom. She knew this was going to be the hardest challenge she would ever face she didn't want to say goodbye just yet  but she knew she had to get out of there she couldn't take it anymore his toxic love, his hurtful words, making her feel like she's nothing she was drained and over it she left him feeling regret, sadness, anger, and fear she didn't want to leave him her heart wasn't ready for that she wanted to stay and be miserable if that meant it was with him she was ok with that…but she knew there was more to life than crying every day and feeling sick to her stomach. All she could do was take a deep breath and remember the girls he lied to about the hurtful things he said, the bad things he did, and all the pain she went through every tear,every stomach ache, every lie stuck with her leaving broken and shattered But she was free. chapter six. heal. She never knew how much support she had until they broke up. She hung out with her friends and family. She had distractions but even then healing is very hard to do. She wrote in her diary about how she felt she wrote about him 50 times. She had so much hurt in her soul from him, writing about how she felt about him made the stress and worries go away she didn't want to be sad anymore she wanted to wake up one day and feel happy for the rest of her life waitting for him to come back but he wont he told her he doesn't want to ever get back together she got her closer she needed she got the all of her questions answered from the way he acted towards her she slowly realized that she doesn't have to deal with him anymore the way he walks past her in the hall like she's nothing like they did not happen and how he always tries to keep contact with her just to set her back she doesn't have to deal with it so she won't everyone has that one relationship where it feels like you can´t leave where thing feels impossible and you feel vaiuble but you can leave i could and i did don't let someone treat you like less of a person because you love them and dont want to lose them because you deserve so much more and that's the story of Tarista the soul of one.
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