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"Theodole Sabot's Confession" is a novella by Guy de Maupassant that delves into the complexities of guilt, morality, and the human condition. The story is presented as a confession by Theodule Sabot, a man who grapples with his past decisions and the consequences of his actions. Through his introspective narrative, Maupassant explores themes of social status, integrity, and the struggle between personal desires and ethical considerations. The novella reflects the author's keen psychological insight and critique of societal norms, offering a compelling exploration of the inner turmoil faced by individuals in a rapidly changing world.

								

assured of your conversion.”

Then he continued more gently:

“You will come to confession to-morrow; for I must examine you at least
twice.”

“Twice?” repeated Sabot.

“Yes.”

The priest smiled.

“You understand perfectly that you must have a general cleaning up, a
thorough cleansing. So I will expect you to-morrow.”

The carpenter, much agitated, asked:

“Where do you do that?”

“Why--in the confessional.”

“In--that box, over there in the corner? The fact is--is--that it does
not suit me, your box.”

“How is that?”

“Seeing that--seeing that I am not accustomed to that, and also I am
rather hard of hearing.”

The cure was very affable and said:

“Well, then! you shall come to my house and into my parlor. We will have
it just the two of us, tete-a-tete. Does that suit you?”

“Yes, that is all right, that will suit me, but your box, no.”

“Well, then, to-morrow after the days work, at six o'clock.”

“That is understood, that is all right, that is agreed on. To-morrow,
monsieur le cure. Whoever draws back is a skunk!”

And he held out his great rough hand which the priest grasped heartily
with a clap that resounded through the church.

Theodule Sabot was not easy in his mind all the following day. He had a
feeling analogous to the apprehension one experiences when a tooth has
to be drawn. The thought recurred to him at every moment: “I must go to
confession this evening.” And his troubled mind, the mind of an atheist
only half convinced, was bewildered with a confused and overwhelming
dread of the divine mystery.

As soon as he had finished his work, he betook himself to the parsonage.
The cure was waiting for him in the garden, reading his breviary as he
walked along a little path. He appeared radiant and greeted him with a
good-natured laugh.

“Well, here we are! Come in, come in, Monsieur Sabot, no one will eat
you.”

And Sabot preceded him into the house. He faltered:

“If you do not mind I should like to get through with this little matter
at once.”

The cure replied:

“I am at your service. I have my surplice here. One minute and I will
listen to you.”

The carpenter, so disturbed that he had not two ideas in his head,
watched him as he put on the white vestment with its pleated folds. The
priest beckoned to him and said:

“Kneel down on this cushion.”

Sabot remained standing, ashamed of having to kneel. He stuttered:

“Is it necessary?”

But the abbe had become dignified.

“You cannot approach the penitent bench except on your knees.”

And Sabot knelt down.

“Repeat the confiteor,” said the priest.

“What is that?” asked Sabot.

“The confiteor. If you do not remember it, repeat after me, one by one,
the words I am going to say.” And the cure repeated the sacred prayer,
in a slow tone, emphasizing the words which the carpenter repeated after
him. Then he said:

“Now make your confession.”

But Sabot was silent, not knowing where to begin. The abbe then came to
his aid.

“My child, I will ask you questions, since you don't seem familiar with
these things. We will take, one by one, the commandments of God. Listen
to me and do not be disturbed. Speak very frankly and never fear that
you may say too much.

  “'One God alone, thou shalt adore,
   And love him perfectly.'

“Have you ever loved anything, or anybody, as well as you loved God?
Have you loved him with all your soul, all your heart, all the strength
of your love?”

Sabot was perspiring with the effort of thinking. He replied:

“No. Oh, no, m'sieu le cure. I love God as much as I can. That is
--yes--I love him very much. To say that I do not love my children,
no--I cannot say that. To say that if I had to choose between them and
God, I could not be sure. To say that if I had to lose a hundred francs
for the love of God, I could not say about that. But I love him well,
for sure, I love him all the same.” The priest said gravely “You must
love Him more than all besides.” And Sabot, meaning well, declared “I
will do what I possibly can, m'sieu le cure.” The abbe resumed:

  “'God's name in vain thou shalt not take
   Nor swear by any other thing.'

“Did you ever swear?”

“No-oh, that, no! I never swear, never. Sometimes, in a moment of anger,
I may say sacre nom de Dieu! But then, I never swear.”

“That is swearing,” cried the priest, and added seriously:

“Do not do it again.

  “'Thy Sundays thou shalt keep
   In serving God devoutly.'

“What do you do on Sunday?”

This time Sabot scratched his ear.

“Why, I serve God as best I can, m'sieu le cure. I serve him--at home. I
work on Sunday.”

The cure interrupted him, saying magnanimously:

“I know, you will do better in future. I will pass over the following
commandments, certain that you have not transgressed the two first. We
will take from the sixth to the ninth. I will resume:

  “'Others' goods thou shalt not take
   Nor keep what is not thine.'

“Have you ever taken in any way what belonged to another?”

But Theodule Sabot became indignant.

“Of course not, of course not! I am an honest man, m'sieu le cure, I
swear it, for sure. To say that I have not sometimes charged for a few
more hours of work to customers who had means, I could not say that. To
say that I never add a few centimes to bills, only a few, I would not
say that. But to steal, no! Oh, not that, no!”

The priest resumed severely:

“To take one single centime constitutes a theft. Do not do it again.

   'False witness thou shalt not bear,
   Nor lie in any way.'

“Have you ever told a lie?”

“No, as to that, no. I am not a liar. That is my quality. To say that I
have never told a big story, I would not like to say that. To say that I
have never made people believe things that were not true when it was to
my own interest, I would not like to say that. But as for lying, I am
not a liar.”

The priest simply said:

“Watch yourself more closely.” Then he continued:

   “'The works of the flesh thou shalt not desire
   Except in marriage only.'

“Did you ever desire, or live with, any other woman than your wife?”

Sabot exclaimed with sincerity:

“As to that, no; oh, as to that, no, m'sieu le Cure. My poor wife,
deceive her! No, no! Not so much as the tip of a finger, either in
thought or in act. That is the truth.”

They were silent a few seconds, then, in a lower tone, as though a doubt
had arisen in his mind, he resumed:

“When I go to town, to say that I never go into a house, you know,
one of the licensed houses, just to laugh and talk and see something
different, I could not say that. But I always pay, monsieur le cure, I
always pay. From the moment you pay, without anyone seeing or knowing
you, no one can get you into trouble.”

The cure did not insist, and gave him absolution.

Theodule Sabot did the work on the chancel, and goes to communion every
month.
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